The pleasures (and guilt) of summer

Posted by Tracy

June 2, 2017 Family  No comments

We are on the countdown to summer vacation. The big changes are that the Boo will be home from school and that I will be working two part-time jobs instead of one. Both things are a little stressful to think about. One of the reasons the Boo enjoys school so much is because it provides a very regimented day that he can rely on. Summers are rough for him, because we tend to make our decisions about what to do day by day, usually based on the weather and how much we all need to get out of the house.

The obvious solution is for me to try to recreate that kind of routine for him at home. Having to work around the hours I have scheduled at the library and the pool should make that easier, right?

Well, that’s the other thing about this summer; I’m working five days a week on a regular basis for the first time since the Boo was born. And I’m feeling guilty. Not for working, not even for being away from him. Most of my guilt comes because I know I can only do this because Jason’s mom is around to keep the Boo at home and happy (and well-fed).

In fact, I’m feeling guilty because she’s picking up a lot this weekend, mostly because of my work schedule. Tonight, for example, my shift starts before the Boo gets out of school, so she’s picking him up. Then she’ll bring Kiki to the dress rehearsal for her ice skating show. She’s watching her skate tonight, so that she can watch the Boo tomorrow so he doesn’t have to go to the show (that’s a long story, which I’ll get into in a another post sometime).

I always like to think that Jason and I are independent, and that we could do everything ourselves if we had to, if we didn’t live so close to our parents. But right now I can’t imagine how much more difficult and exhausting things would be without them. And I’m grateful, even if I don’t always remember to express it.

In the meantime, I’m going to do my best in planning for our summer break and filling the calendar with stuff we prepare the Boo for. There’s a week of traveling already, and he’s excited about our trip. And he has talked about going to the beach and riding roller coasters (probably not at the beach, though). I’m sure August – and second grade – will be here before we know it.

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